"\"use strict\";Object.defineProperty(exports,\"__esModule\",{value:true});Object.defineProperty(exports,\"default\",{enumerable:true,get:function(){return _default}});function _createMdxContent(props){var _components=Object.assign({h2:\"h2\",p:\"p\",em:\"em\",blockquote:\"blockquote\",a:\"a\",strong:\"strong\"},props.components),PhotoScroll=_components.PhotoScroll;if(!PhotoScroll)_missingMdxReference(\"PhotoScroll\",true);return Vue.h(Vue.Fragment,null,Vue.h(_components.h2,null,\"Description\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(PhotoScroll,{photos:[\"${path}/photos/photo1.jpg\",\"${path}/photos/photo2.jpg\"]}),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"Shihai was a naive girl who preferred to stand by the window, gazing into the distance and losing in thought, just like her favourite QQ avators.\\nIn that state, she won't notice you if you walk close to her quietly.\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"The first time I met her in real life, I (The author of this entry) was immediately attracted by her gloomy temperament just like Lin Tai-yu in \",Vue.h(_components.em,null,\"A Dream of Red Mansions\"),\".\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(PhotoScroll,{photos:[\"${path}/photos/photo3.jpg\"]}),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"(The preceding photo is Shihai measuring her height)\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.h2,null,\"Her Family\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,'Her hometown is located inside the central plains.\\nConservative values is dominant there.\\nHer grandfather had two sons because of birth control legislations.\\nHer uncle (the elder son) had one daughter (her sister); her father had one \"son\" (her).'),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,'They had a tradition of throwing away the placenta for female babies and burying the placenta in the center of the courtyard for male babies.\\nTherefore, she had an enormous amount of pressure put on her for \"extending the family line\" ever since her birth.'),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,'Her father was whom we\\'d call a \"traditional father\" who follows Machismo.\\nIn 2023, her father started to be even more strict with her after he almost died from a disease.'),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"Her father was proficient in Math and Economics.\\nHe wanted to raise her to be \\\"a man who can support the sky while standing on the ground\\\".\\nHe said \\\"I want him to be resilient and unyielding, but he's too kind; he can't do it.\\\"\\nMoreover, because she was fragile, introverted, and kind since being a child, out of worry, he often taught her what he thought was necessary to live in a society:\\nCapitalism, Laws, the dark side of humanity...but she often wasn't able to meet her father's standard.\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"She had poor grades in junior middle school, and still wasn't able to meet her family's expectations after junior middle school.\\nShe always blamed herself for that.\\nAfter her graduation from high school, she studied at home for a year and then was able to get into a good public university.\\nSince she was living with her parents, she didn't have much personal space and was always blamed for things that are not her fault.\\nFor example, when she plays a game to take a break from studies, she'd be blamed for \\\"always playing games\\\".\\nTherefore, she was always depressed.\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.h2,null,\"Her Transgender Experience\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"Her father told us how she was like as a child.\\nEver since she was a child, she acted femininely.\\nShe told him, when she first started school, students were separated into groups of boys and girls to play.\\nShe imagined playing with the girls after school.\\nAccording to some other stories told by her father, she seems to be a girl who was assigned the wrong gender at birth.\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"Looking at her early life, her transgender experience is similar to Einar Wegener from \",Vue.h(_components.em,null,\"The Danish Girl\"),\".\\nHergenderincongruitywasmadeapparentinasearlyasherchildhood.\\nHerearlymalepersonalitywasformedbytryingtofitinwithtraditio
