For example, she'd put on the headphones and drank hot coffee in café, then watch the window and observe as people come and leave. That makes her relaxed.
She had some unusual thoughts sometimes.
She made wishes to meteors occasionally. She said: "It's not because I believe that, but in that it's free. And there's no evidence showing it doesn't work."
According to Neko, Yumao loved spicy hot pot, and always enjoyed it with rice.
Yumao liked to watch stars while waiting to fall asleep at night.
After she returned to China, due to bad weather and few spare time, she couldn't watch stars as often as she did.
So [she made a special trip to Dishui Lake and watched stars](https://web.archive.org/web/20210517104313/https://oao.moe/archives/834/).
She saved many thoughts in her [blog](https://web.archive.org/web/20210420170241/https://oao.moe/archives/), and these blog posts spanned many subjects: computer science, military and politics.
She was also interested in literature, and she wrote lots of beautiful proses and poems.
Of course, she also recorded daily life in her blog, and we can still see her story, her experience, and her train of thoughts now.
## Experience
Yumao once studied abroad in the US, then she went back to Shanghai to continue her study in university.
> "Even those things were dark and painful, which had been hidden, you still observed and felt them. Maybe you understood more than myself. How wonderful... You also found my scattered identity, then lifted me out of abyss. That was the first time I was touched by others."
After that, Neko was brought back to Yunnan by family, and was sent to correctional school (a "school" which uses punishments on students to force them to conform).
Then, it was reported that Neko had already died by suicide.
Yumao was extremely grieved after hearing the news.
She continuously sent messages about missing Neko in their Telegram channel.
In her blog post *[Separation and Reunion](https://web.archive.org/web/20210517104118/https://oao.moe/archives/948/)* published in March, she left many words to her friends, and thanked to their company all along.
In Zhihu question [What are your thoughts about ZhiHu user @yu-zhang-31-35 ?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/284818437), many friends wrote their memories of yumao, and expressed their sadness and regret of the death of her.
They also felt regrettable for Neko's death due to close relationship between Neko and Yumao.
In fact, Neko didn't pass away. Before her "death", in her email in 19th March, they still encouraged each other with the words "Must stay alive".
The transgender community investigated this, and found Neko was pronounced dead by her family.
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Neko and Yumao were forced to separate in Shanghai. After that, Neko was brought to Kunming, Yunnan, and then hospitalized at a mental health centre for treatment.
During the time, Neko always hoped to meet with Yumao. She had dinner with her parents and got an interim leave from the hospital, then she tried to contact Yumao in this time gap. After their contact, she persuaded the doctor on duty to issue discharge certificate for her.
This action irritated her family. Shortly afterward, her family drove her to Kunming Anning Haohaizi School (hereinafter referred to as "Haohaizi", a school that punishes students to force them conform) by lying to her that they were taking her to Changshui Airport.
After that, Neko was locked in the Room 308, which can be seen as a black room.
Days after she came out of the Room 308, owing to her excellent command of computer and their trust in her, the propaganda department of Haohaizi found her and asked her to fix network system. Neko accepted and fixed the system quickly, then sent a help email to Yumao at once.
After that, the outside world started to lash out her parents.
The investigative journalist of *Beijing News* also interviewed the staff of Haohaizi to ask the whereabouts of Neko.
However, her parents made a shocking decision.
They said that they had already brought her out of the school, then cancelled the census register of Neko.
