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name: Mikaela Khara
info:
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alias: Mika
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location: Beijing, China
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> "Immersed in love and being loved..."
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When it comes to the wounds caused by love, Mika must be mentioned.
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> "But after meeting Spring Khara, I realized how happy it is to have someone with me."
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> "But now I have to lose her..."
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> "I don't want to go on alone anymore."
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> "Being alone is painful, and I can't see hope."
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> "𝓠 𝓾 𝓪 𝓷
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> "Can I give you my Twitter account password?"
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> "It's somewhat bitter..."
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> "Spring is leaving for Japan, maybe she's boarding the plane now. Tell her I love her."
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> "I bought some ice cream. When my stomach starts to ache, I'll eat some to suppress it."
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> "It won't be painful. It won't."
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Mikaela Khara, also known as Mika,
was a 16-year-old trans girl from Beijing.
She was a top student who attended a special class in a Beijing high school, and her family was fairly well-off.
She enjoyed playing *Dead by Daylight* and researching network engineering.
Many people were willing to engage with her;
she had a wide range of hobbies,
and she gave off a very reliable "big sister" vibe.
Of course, she was indeed older than me.
But the reliability I once thought she had was just a feeling after all...
She had a sense of humor,
was very caring towards others,
but also struggled with gender identity and inner struggle.
She showed a lively side of herself,
but upon closer observation,
she revealed a deep awareness of her own situation.
## First Meeting
I first met Mika on the night of July 31st, 2023.
Her intention was clear ——
she wanted to "ship" me and Jing Jiangbie as a couple.
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Later on, I learned that she was in a relationship with Spring Khara.
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Even though they hadn't been together long,
I could tell from their conversations that they deeply loved each other.
At that time, she was one of my "little bells[^1]" as I often saw her and Spring flaunting their affection for each other.
Through our chats,
I began to realize that Mika’
She was longed for love and companionship and tended to become emotionally dependent on others.
About half a month later,
the four of us created a small group chat.
Almost every night, we’
and sometimes we’
I regret never watching Mika play.
Unfortunately, I was busy researching ways to earn money to prepare for my own independence and financial needs.
## The Breaking Point
Money was precisely the breaking point for Mika’
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In late August, she tried coming out but ended up facing serious opposition.
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What started as a typical situation—family conflict,
her parents not wanting her to undergo hormone replacement therapy (HRT).
So Mika running away from home only to be brought back by the police—ended in conflict resolution at the local police station.
That was originally just a typical thing.
That night, Mika, Spring and I discussed her family conflicts and provided her with psychological support.
Spring realized she had an untouched ¥20,000 (~$2,800, 2023-09) that her family didn’
The two of them had a simple plan: escape together.
The next day, they opened a joint account at China Merchants Bank (CMB).
Once they had money, they began indulging in high expenses frequently, posting on Twitter about their luxurious dates.
...
By September, I started noticing cracks in their relationship due to their financial strain and Mika's dependency on Spring.
Later, I found out that Mika sought out [Yemaomao ](https://twitter.com/cmtfdd ) for companionship,
and what happened during that time was something Spring found hard to accept.
Mika simply wanted to escape because she couldn't bear her family’
...
From September 21st to October 4th,
Mika and Spring were in a toxic relationship.
Mika used Spring’
but she barely took a few shots in the end.
Mika mostly wanted to be loved and cared for,
trying her best to please others.
However, her circumstances trapped her,
making her love seem pathological to Spring,
though it was still genuine.
## From Xiawafang to Tianjin Eye
On October 15th, Mika suddenly contacted me,
asking if I could take over her Twitter account.
I was on my way to Tianjin Library but suddenly realized something was wrong.
Huai An (𝓠 𝓾 𝓪 𝓷
Before leaving the station, I briefly called Mika, trying to calm her down.
"It’ ’
"Tell Spring I love her very much."
Those were Mika’
> (To be continued...)
## Epilogue
Mika’ ’
such as details about her family, friends.
And those close to her advised me to keep certain things private.
So I can only write up to this point.
One night, in a group chat, I was on a call with Mika.
"𝓠 𝓾 𝓪 𝓷
"I want to help many people like me survive."
"But my situation and environment make it difficult."
"If there’ ’
"I think those sisters who run shelters are really amazing."
"If I could one day be like them, able to help others…"
"That would be so wonderful."
This is the origin of XYN (Tianjin) Technology.
Excerpt from: [𝓠 𝓾 𝓪 𝓷 https://twitter.com/ryq59 )'s Chronicle Issue No.33, 2023
[^1]: "Little bells" originally refers to the notification feature on Twitter that alerts users when someone they follow posts a tweet. Users can choose to enable or disable these notifications for specific accounts. Here, 'Little Bell' refers to 𝓠 𝓾 𝓪 𝓷 𝓠 𝓾 𝓪 𝓷
[^2]: XIAWAFANG Station is an interchange station between Lines 1 and 5 of the Tianjin Rail Transit. Heading south from this station leads to WENHUAZHONGXIN (Cultural Centre) Station, where the Tianjin Library (Cultural Centre Branch) is located."
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<!-- 先说一下人物关系：
铨： ， ，
江别：璟江别，铨曾经的对象，目前似乎已经不在社群。
Mika：
泉： ， ，
夜猫猫：在 Mika 离开后离开人世，和 Mika 有着特殊关系，并要求不上 OAU。
怀安：铨高中阶段的同伴
有的事情比较复杂， ，
-->
<!-- 整个故事的发生地点主要在天津地区。 -->
<!-- 黎明杀机：
CMB：
下瓦房站： （ ， ）
天眼：天津之眼摩天轮（这部分故事之前还没写全）
小药娘网络科技：全称“天津小药娘网络科技工作室”，官方英文名称对应 XYN (Tianjin) Technology， ， ， ，
