diff --git a/people/shihai4h/page.en.md b/people/shihai4h/page.en.md index f69caab5..000ed06e 100644 --- a/people/shihai4h/page.en.md +++ b/people/shihai4h/page.en.md @@ -12,21 +12,47 @@ info: '${path}/photos/photo2.jpg', ]} /> -Shihai was a foolish girl who preferred to stand by the window, gazed into the distance and lost in thought, just like her favourite QQ avators. -Even if you approached her quietly and cautiously, it was not easy for her to notice. +Shihai was a naive girl who preferred to stand by the window, gazing into the distance and losing in thought, just like her favourite QQ avators. +In that state, she won't notice you if you walk close to her quietly. -For the first time I met her in real life, I (The author of this entry) was attracted by her glommy temperament like Lin Tai-yu in *A Dream of Red Mansions*. +The first time I met her in real life, I (The author of this entry) was immediately attracted by her glommy temperament just like Lin Tai-yu in *A Dream of Red Mansions*. -(Shihai was measuring her height) +(The preceding photo is Shihai was measuring her height) ## Her Family +Her hometown is located inside the Central Plains. +Conservative values is dominant there. +Her grandfather had two sons because of birth control legislations. +Her uncle (the elder son) had one daughter (her sister); her father had one "son" (her). + +They had a tradition of throwing away the afterbirth for female babies and burying the afterbirth in the center of the courtyard for male babies. +Therefore, she had an enormous amount of pressure put on her for "extending the family line" ever since her birth. + +Her father was whom we'd call a "traditional father" who follows Machismo. +In 2023, her father started to be even more strict with her after he almost died from a disease. + +Her father was proficient in Math and Economics. +He wanted to raise her to be "a man who can support the sky while standing on the ground". +He said "I want him to be resillient and unyielding, but he's too kind; he can't do it." +Moreover, because she was fragile, introverted, and kind since being a child, out of worry, he often taught her what he thought was necessary to live in a society: +Capitalism, Laws, the dark side of humanity...but she often wasn't able to meet her father's standard. + +She had poor grades in junior middle school, and still wasn't able to meet her family's expectations after junior middle school. +She always blamed herself for that. +After her graduation from high school, she studied at home for a year and then was able to get into a good public university. +Since she was living with her parents, she didn't have much personal space and was always blamed for things that are not her fault. +For example, when she plays a game to take a break form studies, she'd be blamed for "always playing games". +Therefore, she was always depressed. + ## Her Transgender Experience + + ## The Story of Her and Transgender Community ## Absurdity and Suicide, the Last Chapter