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添加雪舞梨花梦

* Update people/xuewulihuameng/info.yml

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* Update people/yumao/info.yml

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- 修改了梨花使用的的头像
- 增加了梨花送给朋友的画作
- 增加了梨花相关的故事

* [F] Fix a link error and a wrong commit
- 修复了英文链接问题
- 修复了简体中文的错误提交

* [F] Modify the entry of xuewulihuameng

* [U] Modify the entry for xuewulihuameng
- From Aquaticat's change requests

* [U] Update entry for yumao
- Add more contents according to NekoAyaka

* [F] Attempt to fix build

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* [F] Fix <summary> does not work

* [U] Update the entry for yumao

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* [F] Fix style problems of entry of yumao

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- 完善了羽毛条目的内容
- 完善了羽毛条目的翻译
- 移除了羽毛条目内移动端不可用的 abbr title 标签
- 修改了雪舞梨花梦的头像

* [F] Fix entry for yumao
- 修正了标点错误

* [F] Fix the style of entry for yumao
- 去除了不必要的斜体用法
- 根据格式预览,在部分斜体单词后增加空格
- 在部分英文括号后增加空格

* [F] Fix the entry for yumao
- 找回了在编辑中丢失的中文

* [F] Fix style of entry for yumao

* [U] Update entry for yumao
- 修复了部分语法错误
- 优化了一些句子的表达

* [F] Fix style of entry for xuewulihuameng

* [F] Fix the entry for yumao and xuewulihuameng
- 繁体中文一次校对

* [U] Update entry for yumao (test)

* [F] Fix icon in yumao

* [U] Update netease icon of entry for yumao
- test

* Merge branch 'main' of https://github.com/LiAlH4-Tr/data

* [F] Fix style of entry for yumao

* [F] Fix zh_hant texts of entry for yumao

* [U] Update entry for yumao and xuewulihuameng
- Fix typo
- Modify the description of "commit suicide"

* [U] Update zh_hant texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Localize zh_hant texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Localize zh_hant texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Modify zh texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Localize zh_hant texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Localize zh_hant texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Modify zh texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Localize zh_hant texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Modify zh texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Modify zh texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Localize zh_hant texts of entry for yumao

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* [U] Update entry for yumao

* [U] Update enrty for yumao and xuewulihuameng from Aquaticat's change requests
- Fix grammar

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id: xuewulihuameng
profileUrl: ${path}/photos/profile.jpg
info:
died: '2018-04-28'
websites:
zhihu: https://www.zhihu.com/people/xue-wu-li-hua-meng

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name: Xuewulihuameng
info:
alias: Xuewulihuameng
location: Chongqing, Yubei
---
## Description
Xuewulihuameng is a trans girl who is gentle, lovely, kind-hearted but somewhat solitary.
She was skilled in drawing, and she prepared a painting as a present for her friend.
However, her friend only received the painting after her death.
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In the two Zhihu questions [How's meeting Xuewulihuameng irl?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/269853559) and [How to appraise the death-seeking behavior of Xuewuloihuameng?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/268738337), many of her friends expressed their grief and said that she was really gentle. Even just before her departure, she still consoled and encouraged one of her friends.
She always treated people around her gently. However, what she'd done is so cruel to herself. In one silent night, she left a scheduled will and departed quietly. She wore a beautiful dress, and there was still a sweet smile on her face when she was found.
May she be treated gently in another world and be a happy girl.

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name: 雪舞梨花梦
info:
alias: 梨花
location: 重庆渝北
---
## 简介
梨花是一位温柔、可爱、善良却有些孤独的跨性别女性。
她有着不错的绘画能力,她给她的友人准备了她亲手绘制的画作——尽管因为空间的阻隔,那幅画在她离世之后才送到她的友人手里。
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在[和梨花面姬是种什么样的体验?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/269853559)及[如何评价雪舞梨花梦作死行为?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/268738337)的两篇知乎问答之中,许多她生前的好友都表示,她对身边的人都十分温柔。甚至在她选择离开之前,她仍然在安慰和鼓励着她的朋友。
尽管她明明一直温柔地对待着所有人,她却对自己有些过于残忍,在一个安静的夜晚,她留下了定时遗书之后静悄悄地离开了。而当她被找到的时候,身着漂亮的衣服,面上还带着微笑。
愿她在另一个世界能被温柔以待,做一个幸福的女孩子。

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name: 雪舞梨花夢
info:
alias: 梨花
location: 重慶渝北
---
## 簡介
梨花是一位溫柔、可愛、善良卻有些孤獨的跨性別女性。
她有著不錯的繪畫能力,她給她的友人準備了她親手繪製的畫作——儘管因為空間的阻隔,那幅畫在她離世之後才送到她的友人手裡。
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在[和梨花面姬是種什麼樣的體驗?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/269853559)及[如何評價雪舞梨花夢作死行為?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/268738337)的兩篇知乎問答之中,許多她生前的好友都表示,她對身邊的人都十分溫柔。甚至在她選擇離開之前,她仍然在安慰和鼓勵著她的朋友。
儘管她明明一直溫柔地對待著所有人,她卻對自己有些過於殘忍,在一個安靜的夜晚,她留下了定時遺書之後靜悄悄地離開了。而當她被找到的時候,身著漂亮的衣服,面上還帶著微笑。
願她在另一個世界能被溫柔以待,做一個幸福的女孩子。

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id: yumao
profileUrl: ${path}/photos/profile.png
info:
born: '2000-08-07'
died: '2018-07-31'
websites:
twitter: https://twitter.com/zhangyubaka
zhihu: https://www.zhihu.com/people/yu-zhang-31-35
github: https://github.com/zhangyubaka
iconify:ri:netease-cloud-music-line: https://music.163.com/m/user?id=85577310
blog: https://web.archive.org/web/20210420170241/https://oao.moe/archives/

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---
name: Yumao
info:
alias: Yumao, Zhangqianye, Yunyu
location: Shanghai
---
> "I will transform myself into gentle breeze and rain, then surround you all along."
>
> By Yumao
>
> "It feels like that you are hiding in crystal alone, all I can see is your shattered figure. "
>
> By Neko
## Description
Yumao (Zhangqianye) is a trans girl, who is gentle, smart, strong and lovely.
Her introduction of herself in her profile:
Perhaps Yumao doesn't like taking part in group activities.
I love white and red, as well as that kind of rainbow in Glitch.
I have a sweet tooth, I will feel happy for a long time after holding a packet of white rabbit creamy candies in my hands.
I love cats, and adopted a cat called Ayaka.
She was an admiral of *Kancolle* , and her first action figure was Destroyer Akizuki in *kancolle*.
She enjoyed passing time in silence and ease.
For example, she'd put on the headphones and drank hot coffee in café, then watch the window and observe as people come and leave. That makes her relaxed.
She had some unusual thoughts sometimes.
She made wishes to meteors occasionally. She said: "It's not because I believe that, but in that it's free. And there's no evidence showing it doesn't work."
According to Neko, Yumao loved spicy hot pot, and always enjoyed it with rice.
Yumao liked to watch stars while waiting to fall asleep at night.
After she returned to China, due to bad weather and few spare time, she couldn't watch stars as often as she did.
So [she made a special trip to Dishui Lake and watched stars](https://web.archive.org/web/20210517104313/https://oao.moe/archives/834/).
She saved many thoughts in her [blog](https://web.archive.org/web/20210420170241/https://oao.moe/archives/), and these blog posts spanned many subjects: computer science, military and politics.
She was also interested in literature, and she wrote lots of beautiful proses and poems.
Of course, she also recorded daily life in her blog, and we can still see her story, her experience, and her train of thoughts now.
## Experience
Yumao once studied abroad in the US, then she went back to Shanghai to continue her study in university.
In 2017, she encountered Neko in Twitter (Now X), and she felt that Neko was skilled and powerful.
After that, they became close partners.
In that period, there was not so much censorship about transgender topic in Zhihu.
So Yumao always @ Neko in relevant topics, then showed their affection in public.
During that time, Yumao got many mental supports. She described the care from Neko like this:
> "Even those things were dark and painful, which had been hidden, you still observed and felt them. Maybe you understanded more then myself. How wonderful... You also found my scattered identity, then lifted me out of abyss. That was the first time I was been touched by others."
However, they were forced to separate.
After that, Neko was brought back to Yunnan by family, and was sent to correctional school (a "school" which uses punishments on students to force them to conform).
Then, it was reported that Neko had already died by suicide.
Yumao was extremely grieved after hearing the news.
She continuously sent messages about missing Neko in their Telegram channel.
She quoted *Cassiopeia(カシオペヤ)* , which was a song they used to listen together, to express her grief.
Although she also found that the circumstances of the suicide of Neko was complicated and confusing according to some sources.
But there was no more news about Neko indeed. She really hoped Neko was still alive:
> "For you I always stay alive... For without you I get lost in life. Wish you are still alive... "
>
> (Another version in Zhihu: "Only for you I stay alive... But you are not by my side. Isn't it? Wish you are still alive...")
Yumao always missed Neko, and recalled the days with her.
She often wrote down some caring words in her blog, such as prompted Neko to manage her hair, or told Neko to add or subtract clothes.
In this period, Yumao tried to remember previous time and those things which is moving, happy and blissful.
But her heart was overtaken by sadness, and her memory gradually worsen.
She said that she forgot many things.
She formerly planned to complete SRS within the year, but had to push it back because of her bad mental health and other reasons.
On 30th June 2018, she lost all hope and tried to take her own life.
The next day, she left this world with regrets at her age of 17.
> Wish that I could become a pretty girl who is kind-hearted, and become the sister of Ayaka and Ruri.
In her blog post *[Separation and Reunion](https://web.archive.org/web/20210517104118/https://oao.moe/archives/948/)* published in march, she left many words to her friends, and thanked to their company all along.
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## After Her Leaving
In Zhihu question [What are your thoughts about ZhiHu user @yu-zhang-31-35 ?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/284818437), many friends wrote their memories of yumao, and expressed their sadness and regret of the death of her.
They also felt regrettable for Neko's death due to close relationship between Neko and Yumao.
In fact, Neko didn't pass away. Before her "death", in her email in 19th March, they still encouraged each other with the words "Must stay alive".
The transgender community investigated this, and found Neko was pronounced dead by her family.
<details>
<summary>**Fact**</summary>
Neko and Yumao were forced to separate in Shanghai. After that, Neko was brought to Kunming, Yunnan, and then hospitalized at a mental health centre for treatment.
During the time, Neko always hoped to meet with Yumao. She had dinner with her parents and got an interim leave from the hospital, then she tried to contact Yumao in this time gap. After their contact, she persuaded the doctor on duty to issue discharge certificate for her.
This action irritated her family. Shortly afterward, her family drove her to Kunming Anning Haohaizi School (hereinafter referred to as "Haohaizi", a school that punishes students to force them conform) by lying to her that they were taking her to Changshui Airport.
After that, Neko was locked in the Room 308, which can be seen as a black room.
Days after she came out of the Room 308, owing to her excellent command of computer and their trust in her, the propaganda department of Haohaizi found her and asked her to fix network system. Neko accepted and fixed the system quickly, then sent a help email to Yumao at once.
After that, the outside world started to lash out her parents.
The investigative journalist of *Beijing News* also interviewed the staff of Haohaizi to ask the whereabouts of Neko.
However, her parents made a shocking decision.
They said that they had already brought her out of the school, then cancelled the census register of Neko.
In the interview of *Beijing News* , they spoke in a tearful voice and claimed that Neko had taken her own life in the early hours of 24th March.
Neko was continued to be in Haohaizi since then. She was informed of Yumao's death in October. This news almost devastated her.
But nevertheless, Neko still implemented the words "Must stay alive".
She never gave up and tried to calm herself. She kept a diary and developed her hobbies and interests at that time.
She also found some ways which could resolve her difficulties to take her mind off.
During the latter time in Haohaizi, those around her helped her a lot, her friends accompanied her, and some people delivered things from the outside.
Some friendly drillmasters would take her out to play, or bought things to her. This might have made her happier.
On 1st September 2019, Neko left Haohaizi, and started her new life after a period of time.
> To commemorate all the difficulties I suffered in the past two years
>
> From 2018-03-16 22:31
>
> To 2020-03-16 22:31
>
> Thanks to all your efforts in that period
>
> This is also, to remember all the things you experienced after we separated
>
> Also, for you in 2018-07-31
>
> Thank you everyone.
>
> Neko, on Telegram
</details>
After survived the ordeal, Neko tried to get out of the shadow, and she gradually moved toward to the right road of life.
"Neko will stay alive, to remember that girl I used to loved." This is what Neko always uses to encourage herself.
Good night, yumao, wish you can be a girl and live happily.
Contributors for this entry: One-Among-Us, [Ayaka Neko](https://twitter.com/ayakaneko)

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---
name: 羽毛
info:
alias: 羽毛, 张千叶, 云羽
location: 上海
---
> 「我会化作人间的风雨,陪在你身边。」
>
> —— By 羽毛
>
> 「感觉你就像是孤单一人躲在水晶之中,能看到的只有你破碎的身影呢。」
>
> —— By Neko
## 简介
羽毛(张千叶)是一名温柔聪慧、坚强而可爱的跨性别女孩。
羽毛是这样介绍自己的:羽毛可能并不是一个喜欢在集体活动中出现的人。我喜欢白色,红色,还有会在 Glitch 中出现的那种彩色,也喜欢甜食,抱着一袋大白兔奶糖可以开心很久。喜欢猫,有一只叫絢香的猫。
她曾经是一名舰队 Collection 的提督,她第一个拥有的手办也是舰 C 的驱逐舰秋月。
她喜欢宁静而舒缓、轻松的时刻,比如在冬天戴上耳机,在咖啡店喝一杯热腾腾的咖啡,看着窗外的人来人往,这会让她感到十分惬意。偶尔,她也会有一些特别的想法。有时她会向流星许愿,她说:「并不是因为我相信,而是因为它是免费的,并且没有证据证明它不灵。」
据 Neko 所说,她还很喜欢吃麻辣烫,总是会点两碗下饭吃。
在晚上不睡觉的时候,羽毛喜欢看星星。回国之后,因天气和时间原因,很少能看到。于是她[有一次专程去了滴水湖看星星](https://web.archive.org/web/20210517104313/https://oao.moe/archives/834/)。
在她的[博客](https://web.archive.org/web/20210420170241/https://oao.moe/archives/)之中保存有非常多属于她自己的思考,所涉及的领域十分广泛,包括计算机、军事、政治;同时,她也是一位文学少女,写下了很多优美的散文与诗歌。当然,博文里也记录了许多她的日常生活,于此,我们能看到她的故事与经历,还有她的心路足迹。
## 经历
羽毛曾经有一段在美国留学生活的经历,然后回到了上海求学。
而后,在 2017 年时,她于推特上认识了 Neko觉得她是很厉害的人并逐渐与她成为了重要的伙伴。
在那个知乎还能聊很多 Trans 相关主题的时候,羽毛总是喜欢在相关的话题下艾特 Neko然后在下面秀恩爱。
在这段时光之中,羽毛和得到了很多的精神上的支持。羽毛自己这样形容:
>「即便是那些曾经被埋没的,黑暗的,痛苦的,你也悄悄观测到了,感受到了,可能比我自己还要了解得多一些吧,好厉害。那个已经碎碎的自己,也被你看到了呢,甚至被抱了出来,第一次被别人碰到呢。」
然而,她们在 2018 年 3 月中旬被迫分开随后Neko 被家人带回云南送入了矫正中心。此后不久Neko 传出了轻生后抢救无效的消息,知道这个消息的羽毛极度悲伤和难过,她在她们的 Telegram 频道之中发送了许许多多想念 Neko 的消息。她引用了《仙后座 (カシオペヤ) 》一曲来表达自己的悲伤,这是她们曾经一起听过的歌曲。
尽管她也通过一些渠道发现Neko的「自杀」似乎仍有些扑朔迷离但 Neko 确实也一直杳无音讯。她在内心一直期望着 Neko 还在:
> 「因为你而存在……因为你而不在,要在啊……」
>
> (知乎上的另一个版本:「总是仅为你而存在,只是你并不在,不是么……要在啊……」)
在博客之中,羽毛也一直在思念着 Neko追忆往昔的事情并时常写下一些关心的话语比如是否认真打理头发又或者是否及时增减衣服。
在这段时间里,羽毛一直在尝试回忆以前的事情,那些感动、开心而幸福的事情。但她的内心被悲伤所占据,记忆能力在逐渐消退,逐渐淡忘了很多。
原本她还规划着想要在年内手术,但由于精神状态急转直下等原因,因此也未能实现。
在 7 月 30 日,万念俱灰的她尝试轻生,并在次日带着遗憾离开了这个世界,永远地留在了她的 17 岁。
> 希望下辈子,可以做漂亮的,善良的女孩子,可以和絢香还有琉璃成为姐妹吧。
在 3 月的博客《[分别与重逢](https://web.archive.org/web/20210517104118/https://oao.moe/archives/948/)》之中,她给她的朋友们留下了许多的话语,也一直感谢大家的陪伴。
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## 身后
在知乎问答 [如何评价知乎用户 @张千叶?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/284818437)中,许多友人回忆了与羽毛相处的经过,并表达了对羽毛逝世的悲伤与惋惜。由于 Neko 和 羽毛曾是亲密的伙伴,因此在回答之中也有很多人对 Neko 的轻生感到惋惜。
然而事实上Neko 并没有离世。此前,在 3 月 19 日的邮件之中,她依然和羽毛相互鼓励「一定要活着」。
社群也曾对此事进行了一定的调查,发现 Neko 是被家人「宣告死亡」的背后事实。
<details>
<summary>**背后的事情**</summary>
Neko 和羽毛被迫在上海分开之后,被父母带回了云南昆明,而后在心理卫生中心住院治疗。
在这段时间里Neko 一直想着要去寻找羽毛于是在院外与家人吃饭的间隙尝试和羽毛联系并说服了当值医生给自己开具出院证明。此举激怒了其家人。此后家人索性假借送她去长水机场之名将其开车送至昆明安宁市好孩子学校以下简称「好孩子」此后Neko 被关入了 308 房间,也可以理解成小黑屋一样的存在。
在从 308 房间出来之后数日,由于 Neko 掌握着不错的计算机技术,加上此时宣传部门较为信任她,于是找到了 Neko要求其帮助他们修理网络系统。Neko 在修复网络系统后迅速给羽毛发送了邮件。
随后外界开始了对Neko父母的言论轰炸《新京报》的记者也找到了好孩子询问Neko的下落。
但是Neko 的父母随后作出了惊人的决定,和其他人说已经把 Neko 从机构中带出,随后将 Neko 的户籍注销,并用哭腔在《新京报》的采访中对外界宣称 Neko 已于 3 月 24 日凌晨自杀。
在这之后Neko 继续被关在好孩子中,在 10 月得知了羽毛出事的情况,并几近崩溃。
尽管如此Neko 仍旧践行了「一定要活着」的话语,她没有自暴自弃,而是想办法平静下来,并坚持记录下了一些日记,也培养了一些兴趣爱好。她尝试寻找一些能够解决困境的方法把自己的注意力转移开。在好孩子的后半段时光里,她身边的人帮助了她很多,有朋友在身边陪她,又或者是人从外边送东西进来。有时,一些对她好的那些教官会带她去玩,或者是给她买东西,这能让她开心一些。
2019 年 9 月 1 日Neko 离开了好孩子学校,在一段时间后开始了新的生活。
> 谨以此纪念过去两年里所遭受的一切困难和苦难
>
> 2018 年 3 月 16 日 晚间 22:31
>
> 2020 年 3 月 16 日 晚间 22:31
>
> 谢谢大家在那段时间里所付出的一切
>
> 也是为了纪念 2018 年 3 月 14 日和你们分开后的一切
>
> 还有 2018 年 7 月 31 日的你。
>
> 谢谢你们。
>
> Neko, 于 Telegram
</details>
在经历了苦难后的 Neko 一直在尝试着从阴影中走出,逐步走向生活的正轨。
「猫会好好活着,来怀念过去深爱着的某个人。」这是 Neko 一直用来在激励自己的话。
晚安,羽毛,愿你能做一个幸福开心的女孩子。
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name: 羽毛
info:
alias: 羽毛, 張千葉, 雲羽
location: 上海
---
> 「我會化作人間的風雨,陪在你身邊。」
>
> —— By 羽毛
>
> 「感覺你就像是孤單一人躲在水晶之中,能看到的只有你破碎的身影呢。」
>
> —— By Neko
## 簡介
羽毛(張千葉)是一個溫柔聰慧、堅強而可愛的跨性別女孩。
羽毛是這樣介紹自己的:羽毛可能並不是一個喜歡在集體活動中出現的人。我喜歡白色,赤色,還有會在 Glitch 中出現的那種彩色,也喜歡甜食,抱著一袋大白兔奶糖可以開心很久。喜歡貓,有一只叫絢香的貓。
她曾經是一名艦隊 Collection 的提督,她第一個擁有的手辦也是艦 C 的驅逐艦秋月。
她喜歡寧靜而舒緩、輕鬆的時刻,比如在冬天戴上耳機,在咖啡店喝一杯熱騰騰的咖啡,看著窗外的人來人往,這會讓她感到十分愜意。偶爾,她也會有一些特別的想法。有時她會向流星許願,她說:「並不是因為我相信,而是因為它是免費的,並且沒有證據證明它不靈。」
據 Neko 所說,她還很喜歡吃麻辣燙,總是會點兩碗下飯吃。
在晚上不睡覺的時候,羽毛喜歡看星星。回國之後,因天氣和時間原因,很少能看到。於是她[有一次專程去了滴水湖看星星](https://web.archive.org/web/20210517104313/https://oao.moe/archives/834/)。
在她的[部落格](https://web.archive.org/web/20210420170241/https://oao.moe/archives/)之中保存有非常多屬於她自己的思考,所涉及的領域十分廣泛,包括計算機科學、軍事以及政治;同時,她也是一位文學少女,寫下了很多優美的散文與詩歌。當然,文章裡也記錄了許多她的日常生活,因此,我們能看到她的故事與經歷,還有她的心路足跡。
## 經歷
羽毛曾經有一段在美國留學生活的經歷,然後回到了上海求學。
而後,在 2017 年時,她於推特上認識了 Neko覺得她是很厲害的人並逐漸與她成為了重要的夥伴。
在那個知乎還能聊很多 Trans 相關主題的時候,羽毛總是喜歡在相關的話題下提及 Neko然後在下面秀恩愛。
在這段時光之中,羽毛和得到了很多的精神上的支持。羽毛自己這樣形容:
>「即便是那些曾經被埋沒的,黑暗的,痛苦的,你也悄悄觀測到了,感受到了,可能比我自己還要了解得多一些吧,好厲害。那個已經碎碎的自己,也被你看到了呢,甚至被抱了出來,第一次被別人碰到呢。」
然而,她們在 2018 年 3 月中旬被迫分開隨後Neko 被家人帶回雲南送入了矯正教育學校。此後不久Neko 傳出了輕生後搶救無效的消息,知道這個消息的羽毛極度悲傷和難過,她在她們的 Telegram 頻道之中發送了許許多多想念 Neko 的消息。她引用了《仙后座 (カシオペヤ) 》一曲來表達自己的悲傷,這是她們曾經一起聽過的歌曲。
儘管她也通過一些途徑發現Neko的「自殺」似乎仍有些撲朔迷離但 Neko 確實也一直杳無音訊。她在內心一直期望著 Neko 還在:
> 「因為你而存在……因為你而不在,要在啊……」
>
> (知乎上的另一個版本:「總是僅為你而存在,只是你並不在,不是麼……要在啊……」)
在博客之中,羽毛也一直在思念著 Neko追憶往昔的事情並時常寫下一些關心的話語比如是否認真打理頭髮又或者是否及時增減衣服。
在這段時間裡,羽毛一直在嘗試回憶以前的事情,那些感動、開心而幸福的事情。但她的內心被悲傷所佔據,記憶能力在逐漸消退,逐漸淡忘了很多。
原本她還規劃著想要在年內手術,但由於精神狀態急轉直下等原因,因此也未能實現。
在 7 月 30 日,萬念俱灰的她嘗試輕生,並在次日帶著遺憾離開了這個世界,永遠地留在了她的 17 歲。
> 希望下輩子,可以做漂亮的,善良的女孩子,可以和絢香還有琉璃成為姐妹吧。
在 3 月的博客《[分別與重逢](https://web.archive.org/web/20210517104118/https://oao.moe/archives/948/)》之中,她給她的朋友們留下了許多的話語,也一直感謝大家的陪伴。
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## 身後
在知乎問答 [如何評價知乎用戶 @張千葉?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/284818437)中,許多友人回憶了與羽毛相處的經過,並表達了對羽毛逝世的悲傷與惋惜。由於 Neko 和 羽毛曾是親密的夥伴,因此在回答之中也有很多人對 Neko 的輕生感到惋惜。
然而事實上Neko 並沒有離世。此前,在 3 月 19 日的郵件之中,她依然和羽毛相互鼓勵「一定要活著」。
社群也曾對此事進行了一定的調查,發現 Neko 是被家人「宣告死亡」的背後事實。
<details>
<summary>**背後的事情**</summary>
Neko 和羽毛被迫在上海分開之後,被父母帶回了雲南昆明,而後在心理衛生中心住院治療。
在這段時間裡Neko 一直想著要去尋找羽毛於是在院外與家人吃飯的間隙嘗試和羽毛聯繫並說服了當值醫生給自己開具出院證明。此舉激怒了其家人。此後家人索性假借送她去長水機場之名將其開車送至昆明安寧市好孩子學校以下簡稱「好孩子」此後Neko 被關入了 308 房間,也可以理解成小黑屋一樣的存在。
在從 308 房間出來之後數日,由於 Neko 掌握著不錯的電腦技術,加上此時宣傳部門較為信任她,於是找到了 Neko要求其協助他們修理網路系統。Neko 在修復網路系統後迅速給羽毛發送了郵件。
隨後外界開始了對Neko父母的言論轟炸《新京報》的記者也找到了好孩子詢問Neko的下落。
但是Neko 的父母隨後作出了驚人的決定,和其他人說已經把 Neko 從機構中帶出,隨後將 Neko 的戶籍註銷,並用哭腔在《新京報》的採訪中對外界宣稱 Neko 已於 3 月 24 日淩晨自殺。
在這之後Neko 繼續被關在好孩子中,在 10 月得知了羽毛出事的情況,並幾近崩潰。
儘管如此Neko 仍舊踐行了「一定要活著」的話語,她沒有自暴自棄,而是想辦法平靜下來,並堅持記錄下了一些日記,也培養了一些興趣愛好。她嘗試尋找一些能夠解決困境的方法把自己的注意力轉移開。在好孩子的後半段時光裡,她身邊的人幫助了她很多,有朋友在身邊陪她,又或者是人從外邊送東西進來。有時,一些對她好的那些教官會帶她去玩,或者是給她買東西,這能讓她開心一些。
2019 年 9 月 1 日Neko 離開了好孩子學校,在一段時間後開始了新的生活。
> 謹以此紀念過去兩年裡所遭受的一切困難和苦難
>
> 2018 年 3 月 16 日 晚間 22:31
>
> 2020 年 3 月 16 日 晚間 22:31
>
> 謝謝大家在那段時間裡所付出的一切
>
> 也是為了紀念 2018 年 3 月 14 日和你們分開後的一切
>
> 還有 2018 年 7 月 31 日的你。
>
> 謝謝你們。
>
> Neko, 於 Telegram
</details>
在經歷了苦難後的 Neko 一直在嘗試著從陰影中走出,逐步走向生活的正軌。
「貓會好好活著,來懷念過去深愛著的某個人。」這是 Neko 一直用來在激勵自己的話。
晚安,羽毛,願你能做一個幸福開心的女孩子。
條目貢獻One-Among-Us, [絢香猫](https://twitter.com/ayakaneko)

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acorn-jsx@^5.0.0: acorn-jsx@^5.0.0:
version "5.3.2" version "5.3.2"
@ -420,7 +420,12 @@ acorn-walk@^8.1.1:
resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/acorn-walk/-/acorn-walk-8.2.0.tgz#741210f2e2426454508853a2f44d0ab83b7f69c1" resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/acorn-walk/-/acorn-walk-8.2.0.tgz#741210f2e2426454508853a2f44d0ab83b7f69c1"
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acorn@^8.0.0, acorn@^8.4.1: acorn@^8.0.0:
version "8.11.2"
resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/acorn/-/acorn-8.11.2.tgz#ca0d78b51895be5390a5903c5b3bdcdaf78ae40b"
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acorn@^8.4.1:
version "8.9.0" version "8.9.0"
resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/acorn/-/acorn-8.9.0.tgz#78a16e3b2bcc198c10822786fa6679e245db5b59" resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/acorn/-/acorn-8.9.0.tgz#78a16e3b2bcc198c10822786fa6679e245db5b59"
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@ -589,9 +594,9 @@ data-uri-to-buffer@^4.0.0:
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deasync@^0.1.0: deasync@^0.1.0:
version "0.1.28" version "0.1.29"
resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/deasync/-/deasync-0.1.28.tgz#9b447b79b3f822432f0ab6a8614c0062808b5ad2" resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/deasync/-/deasync-0.1.29.tgz#8bbbf9d0b235c561b36edd440b6272f1de6c572c"
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dependencies: dependencies:
bindings "^1.5.0" bindings "^1.5.0"
node-addon-api "^1.7.1" node-addon-api "^1.7.1"
@ -928,9 +933,9 @@ is-plain-object@^5.0.0:
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is-reference@^3.0.0: is-reference@^3.0.0:
version "3.0.1" version "3.0.2"
resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/is-reference/-/is-reference-3.0.1.tgz#d400f4260f7e55733955e60d361d827eb4d3b831" resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/is-reference/-/is-reference-3.0.2.tgz#154747a01f45cd962404ee89d43837af2cba247c"
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dependencies: dependencies:
"@types/estree" "*" "@types/estree" "*"
@ -1455,9 +1460,9 @@ node-fetch@^2.6.7:
whatwg-url "^5.0.0" whatwg-url "^5.0.0"
node-fetch@^3.2.0: node-fetch@^3.2.0:
version "3.3.1" version "3.3.2"
resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/node-fetch/-/node-fetch-3.3.1.tgz#b3eea7b54b3a48020e46f4f88b9c5a7430d20b2e" resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/node-fetch/-/node-fetch-3.3.2.tgz#d1e889bacdf733b4ff3b2b243eb7a12866a0b78b"
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dependencies: dependencies:
data-uri-to-buffer "^4.0.0" data-uri-to-buffer "^4.0.0"
fetch-blob "^3.1.4" fetch-blob "^3.1.4"
@ -1518,9 +1523,9 @@ portfinder@^1.0.28:
mkdirp "^0.5.6" mkdirp "^0.5.6"
property-information@^6.0.0: property-information@^6.0.0:
version "6.2.0" version "6.4.0"
resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/property-information/-/property-information-6.2.0.tgz#b74f522c31c097b5149e3c3cb8d7f3defd986a1d" resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/property-information/-/property-information-6.4.0.tgz#6bc4c618b0c2d68b3bb8b552cbb97f8e300a0f82"
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qs@^6.4.0: qs@^6.4.0:
version "6.11.2" version "6.11.2"
@ -1616,9 +1621,9 @@ stringify-entities@^4.0.0:
character-entities-legacy "^3.0.0" character-entities-legacy "^3.0.0"
style-to-object@^0.4.1: style-to-object@^0.4.1:
version "0.4.1" version "0.4.4"
resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/style-to-object/-/style-to-object-0.4.1.tgz#53cf856f7cf7f172d72939d9679556469ba5de37" resolved "https://registry.yarnpkg.com/style-to-object/-/style-to-object-0.4.4.tgz#266e3dfd56391a7eefb7770423612d043c3f33ec"
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dependencies: dependencies:
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