From d4fbaa7c3cab105cf339164adb76377490455a04 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Twinsherry Date: Tue, 2 Jan 2024 16:37:33 +0000 Subject: [PATCH] =?UTF-8?q?Deploying=20to=20gh-pages=20from=20@=20one-amon?= =?UTF-8?q?g-us/data@410d17fac5138ccff2fa79e99cda0c7869b4d978=20?= =?UTF-8?q?=F0=9F=9A=80?= MIME-Version: 1.0 Content-Type: text/plain; charset=UTF-8 Content-Transfer-Encoding: 8bit --- people/Xu_Yushu/page.en.json | 2 +- people/Xu_Yushu/page.json | 2 +- people/Xu_Yushu/page.md | 2 +- people/Xu_Yushu/page.zh_hant.json | 2 +- 4 files changed, 4 insertions(+), 4 deletions(-) diff --git a/people/Xu_Yushu/page.en.json b/people/Xu_Yushu/page.en.json index b3fb4e54..213ba387 100644 --- a/people/Xu_Yushu/page.en.json +++ b/people/Xu_Yushu/page.en.json @@ -1 +1 @@ -"\"use strict\";Object.defineProperty(exports,\"__esModule\",{value:true});Object.defineProperty(exports,\"default\",{enumerable:true,get:function(){return _default}});function MDXContent(props){if(props===void 0)props={};var _createMdxContent=function _createMdxContent(){var _components=Object.assign({h2:\"h2\",p:\"p\",em:\"em\",strong:\"strong\",blockquote:\"blockquote\",h3:\"h3\"},props.components),PhotoScroll=_components.PhotoScroll;if(!PhotoScroll)_missingMdxReference(\"PhotoScroll\",true);return Vue.h(Vue.Fragment,null,Vue.h(_components.h2,null,\"Introduction\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"Xu Yushu is a trans girl from Chongqing, China.\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,'Xu Yushu was seen as a \"genius boy\" by others.\\nShe was in ',Vue.h(_components.em,null,\"Jingmen Evening News\"),\" once as \",Vue.h(_components.em,null,\"The Child Who Skipped Kindergarten\"),\".\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"Although, maybe such fame isn't what's important about her.\\nWhat'd important is her having a precious and unique heart of gentleness and sensitivity.\\nShe had the drive to express her feelings through words.\\nMaybe it's more accurate to describe her as \",Vue.h(_components.em,null,\"literary girl\"),\".\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.h2,null,\"Her Interests and Ambitions\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,'One of Xu Yushu\\'s ambitions is to be accepted by the people around her as a \"real\" girl.'),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"Xu Yushu had always been a lonely child but she made friends with books.\\nReading made her mature faster than her peers.\\nShe loved being immersed in the world of books.\\nHer bookshelf was filled up already at that time.\\nNot only that, she also went to the bookstore next to her father's workspace and left a deep impression on the bookstore's manager.\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"During her high school years, Nan'an Wanda Plaza's Sisyphe Books was one of the places she went to the most.\\nThere, she could find tranquility in the pleasant smell of coffee and books.\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,'She loved writing, and was once elected as the president of Chongqing No.2 Foreign Language School Nanlu Literary Club.\\nIn one of her writings, she wrote \"Real writing is offering the writer themselves to Goddess Muses\\'s sacrificial altar.\"'),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"Because of her depression and gender dysphoria, her grades dropped a bit, but she still longed to get into Peking University or Beijing Normal University's Department of Chinese Language and Literature.\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,\"Aside from being interested in literature and history, she liked anime, and was always happy to share her insights about it with others.\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.h2,null,\"Her Story\"),\"\\n\",Vue.h(_components.p,null,'As early as her third year during elementary school, Xu Yushu had the dream of becoming a girl.\\nAs soon as she found out she started to exhibit male pattern secondary sexual characteristics, she locked herself in her room and cried for a whole day, not willing to check in the mirror.\\nWhen she reached her sixth year, many classmates bullied her because she was different from others.\\nHer father told her: \"This world needs tolerance. 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