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name: mizuharanagisa
info:
    alias: Mizuhara Nagisa, 水原なぎさ, Shui Yuan Zhu
    location: Shanghai
---

## Description

Nagisa is a trans woman living in Shanghai.
She was friends with [Ying](https://www.one-among.us/profile/Uekawakuyuurei/).
During her life, she was an active long-term contributor to Chinese Wikipedia and other MediaWiki sites.
In 2019, she started playing *Kancolle*.
Her favourite character was Destroyer Hibiki.
Her hobbies were tinkering with computer hardware like Raspberry Pi and drawing.
She was also proficient in Japanese.

Because of depression and other problems, she had to stop going to school in 2019;
because of the unacceptance of her family and other problems she faced, her depression and anxiety got worse and started to suffer from insomnia.
On 2021 July 20th, she took her own life to leave this cruel world.

This is the [last piece of writing](https://pbs.twimg.com/media/E6odBBBVIAAM-Zt?format=jpg&name=4096x4096) she left us.

> To every one of my friends
>
> People who know me well usually call me Mizu Senpai or Mizuhara. Anyway, my name is Mizuhara Nagisa.
> Of course, it’s not my legal name.
> How do I say this?
> During these past few years I’ve been tormented by chronic depression and anxiety issues.
> I think they finally overcame me today,
> so I decided to end my life.
> I don’t really know what would happen,
> Either I’d be dead or I’d be in the ICU, lol.
> Regrettably, I would be unable to enjoy the 3060 video card I just got.
> And Nintendo Switch, PlayStation 5.
>
> Everything goes wrong when my family is involved.
> It’s better to hope for a better start in the next life?
> Nope, of course, I'm not going to come to this cruel world again;
> The worlds portrayed in animes are much better, not that I think they exist.
>
> (Switching my pen.)
>
> I’m tired of everything.
> I still have games to play:
> What would happen to the girls in Jinjufu?
> Would those girls in Jinjufu keep waiting for me?
> I’m sorry, but I cannot keep going anymore.
> I really can’t find any energy in myself to keep me going.
> This body is also broken, from head to toe.
> Might as well throw it away, along with these health issues.
> I hope that in the next life,
> I can master drawing;
> I can read more books, more than how many I’ve read in this life.
> Most importantly, being a cute girl.
> (Not that I believe in there being a next life, just a wish.)
>
> I want to thank everyone who has helped me during my short life.
> You helped me many times during various periods of my life,
> but I really can’t thank you individually.
> And, Ying, if there really is a world we go to after death,
> I'll mark the route for you.
> Not really, please live healthily and happily in this life.
> Oh, I forgot.
> I have a Vtuber video to watch, I’m going to watch that now.
> Once again, thank you, every one of my friends.
> Sorry for taking your time.
>
> — Mizuhara Nagisa, 2021 June 20th.

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We wish you to be able to meet the girls in Jinjufu and live happily in another world,
after leaving all of this world's sufferings behind.