[PR] Merge pull request #237 from Twinsherry/juezhe

[+] Add juzhe50533467

people/juzh50533467/info.yml

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+id: juzh50533467
+profileUrl: ${path}/photos/profile.jpg
+info:
+  born: '2005-09-03'
+  died: '2023-05-09'
+websites:
+    twitter: https://twitter.com/juzh50533467
+    Bilibili: https://space.bilibili.com/621131987

people/juzh50533467/page.en.md

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+---
+name: Juezhe
+info:
+    alias: Juezhe
+    location: Guangxi, China
+---
+
+## Introduction
+
+> Juezhe was a trans girl who grew up in the rural areas of Guangxi. Though she didn't have much formal education, she carried within her a unique courage.
+>
+> We often see many trans women with different backgrounds and experiences.
+> 
+> We might find it easier to notice those girls who shine brightly, trying to break barriers with their knowledge and education.
+>
+> But across this vast land, there are many more trans women who deserve to be seen.
+>
+> Juezhe didn't leave many words, so we have preserved her first-person narrative to retain more of her presence in this world.
+>
+> "Girls, don’t be ashamed... you’re not a freak, everyone is always with you."
+>
+> —— One Among Us
+
+## Juezhe's Self Narration
+
+When I was in elementary school,
+I really liked the smooth, hairless skin of girls and how they could dress however they wanted, grow long hair, and braid it.
+Most importantly, they could wear skirts, which was awesome.
+Every time I saw other girls, I envied them very much.
+
+I secretly wore my sister's skirt once.
+I was so happy but also very scared, scared of being discovered.
+I hated my secondary sexual characteristics.
+Why couldn't I be a girl...
+
+I hated the labels they put on me.
+I couldn’t accept that,
+but gender isn’t something you can choose.
+I was destined not to change anything.
+In others' minds,
+boys were supposed to be rough and messy.
+
+I have a very considerate sister who always took care of me.
+When I talked back and got hit by my dad,
+she was always the first to comfort me.
+I felt very happy staying with her,
+but this short-lived happiness only lasted until she graduated from elementary school...
+
+Maybe it was partly because of family reasons.
+When I was young, my dad smoked, drank, gambled, and liked to commit domestic violence.
+He often hit me, leaving bruises and marks.
+Once he beat me so hard that a thick black mark was left on my calf.
+After a few instances of domestic violence,
+my mom left to work in another province.
+My dad often gambled till late and didn’t come home.
+I was too scared to sleep alone,
+so I kept the TV on and hid in the corner of the bed by the wall.
+Maybe growing up in this kind of loveless environment made me crave love even more...
+
+I belonged to the passive personality type,
+without my own opinions,
+always feeling self-pity,
+always escaping,
+overly caring about others' evaluations,
+and yearning for recognition.
+No matter how sad I was,
+I would always force a smile in front of others,
+afraid of being misunderstood.
+
+Although only my childhood friend was willing to hang out with me,
+I longed even more to play with girls.
+When I saw female classmates playing string figure or jump rope,
+I wanted to join them but didn’t have the courage,
+so I could only watch from afar.
+I remember very clearly one time during long-break,
+I stood in the corner watching girls play jump rope for a long time.
+I wanted so badly to join them but was afraid of being laughed at,
+so I didn’t dare to speak.
+In the end, one girl noticed me and invited me to play.
+Just as I was about to go over, the bell rang.
+I was really sad then, and this memory still stays with me...
+
+Sigh...
+I kept these thoughts to myself and never told anyone.
+Until one day,
+I stumbled upon information about transgenders, estrogen, and transitioning on the internet.
+This changed my rigid mindset, and after learning more, I unhesitatingly sought out ways to start HRT...
+
+## Juezhe's Departure
+
+> "I never really hoped to be accepted. Born a misfit..."
+
+On that day, that girl went to a secluded mountain, intending to end it all.
+
+She knew her family's financial situation couldn’t support her transition nor save her life.
+
+She always felt like a burden...
+
+> "The liquid was so strong, so bitter, and so salty..."
+>
+> "I hope in the next life I can be a girl... Sorry for making everyone worry even in death..."
+
+Say goodnight to that girl, she was just too tired, and fell asleep...

people/juzh50533467/page.md

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+---
+name: 诀蛰
+info:
+    alias: 诀蛰
+    location: 中国广西
+---
+
+## 导语
+
+> 诀蛰是一个来自广西农村的跨性别女孩，学历不高，但她的内心有属于自己的那份勇气。
+>
+> 我们所能看到的许多跨性别女性，有着不一样的背景，不一样的经历。
+> 
+> 可能我们更容易看到，许多自带光芒的，试图用知识与学历打破禁锢的女孩们。
+>
+> 但在这广袤无垠的土地上，还有更多，更多的跨性别女性们，应当被看见。
+>
+> 诀蛰所留下的文字并不多，因此我们保留了她自述中的第一人称笔法，从而留下她在这个世界上更多的痕迹。
+>
+> 「女孩啊，不要自卑呢……妳不是怪胎呢，大家一直与妳同在。」
+>
+> —— 那些秋叶
+
+## 诀蛰的自述
+
+在俺小学的时候，很喜欢女生白白嫩嫩还没体毛的皮肤，还可以随心所欲地打扮自己，留长长的头发，还可以扎辫子，最重要的是可以穿裙子哎，超棒的好嘛，每次看到别的女生俺都会羡慕她们。
+
+俺也有偷偷穿过俺姐的裙子，很开心又很害怕，害怕被别人发现。俺讨厌自己的第二性征，为什么俺不可以是女生……
+
+俺也讨厌那些被贴在身上的标签，俺不能接受，但性别又不是自己能决定的，俺注定改变不了什么，在别人的印象中男生就只能是那种大大咧咧邋里邋遢的样子嘛。
+
+俺有一个很懂事的姐姐，做什么事都很照顾俺，俺顶嘴被老爸打了也会第一时间来安慰俺。和她待在一起的日子里，俺感觉很幸福，不过这份短暂的幸福只持续到了她小学毕业……
+
+也可能有点家庭原因，小时候老爸抽烟喝酒赌博全都沾，还喜欢家暴，他经常打俺。有一次打得小腿都留下了一条很粗的黑色的印子。俺老妈被家暴几次后就去了外省打工，老爸经常赌博到凌晨都不回来，俺一个人又不敢睡，只能一直开着电视躲在靠墙那边的床角，可能是因为这种从小缺爱的家庭环境让俺更渴望被爱吧………
+
+俺是那种被动型人格，没有主见，自怨自艾，总是逃避，过分在意他人的评价，渴望被认可。可就算再难过，俺面对别人的时候也会挤出一丝笑容，害怕被别人误解。
+
+虽然只有发小愿意陪俺，但俺更渴望能和女孩子一起玩，那时候看到女同学玩花绳，跳皮筋俺都想过去跟她们一起玩，无奈没有勇气迈出那一步，只能远远观望。俺记得非常清楚的是有一次大课间，俺一个人站在角落望着远处的女同学玩跳皮筋，看了很久，很想过去跟她们一起玩，但又害怕被笑，就没敢开口，到最后终于有个女孩看到俺了，邀请俺过去一起玩跳皮筋，俺刚想走过去的时候上课铃就响了，那时候真的很伤心，这件事俺现在依旧记忆深刻……
+
+哎……这种想法一直藏在俺心底没和任何人提起过，直到之前偶然间从网络上了解到了药娘，雌激素和跨性别，改变了俺刻板的想法，深入了解后毫不犹豫的就去找途径买糖吃……
+
+## 诀蛰的离开
+
+> 「本来就不抱有能被接受的期望，生来就是个不合群的怪胎……」
+
+在那天，那位女孩躲到了人们难以发现的山上，准备结束这一切。
+
+她知道她的家庭经济条件没法将她挽救回来。
+
+她总觉得自己是个累赘……
+
+> 「好浓，好苦，好咸……」
+>
+> 「希望来世可以当个女孩子……对不起，死了还要别人为俺担心……」
+
+向那位女孩说晚安吧，她只是太累了，睡着了呢……

people/juzh50533467/page.zh_hant.md

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+---
+name: 訣蟄
+info:
+    alias: 訣蟄
+    location: 中國廣西
+---
+
+## 導言
+
+> 訣蟄是一個來自廣西農村的跨性別女孩, 學歷不高, 但她內心有屬於自己的那份勇氣。 
+>
+> 我們所能看到的許多跨性別女性, 有著不一樣的背景, 不一樣的經歷。
+>
+> 可能我們更容易看到, 許多自帶光芒的, 試圖用知識和學歷打破禁錮的女孩子們。
+>
+> 但這廣袤無垠的土地上, 更多的跨性別女性們, 應當被看見。
+>
+> 訣蟄所留下的文字並不多, 因此我們保留了她自述的第一人稱筆法, 從而留下她在這個世界上更多的痕跡。
+>
+> 「女孩啊, 不要自卑呢......妳不是怪胎呢, 大家與妳同在。」
+>
+> —— One Among Us
+
+## 訣蟄的自述
+
+在俺小學的時候，很喜歡女生白白嫩嫩還沒體毛的皮膚，還可以隨心所欲地打扮自己，留長長的頭髮，還可以紮辮子，最重要的是可以穿裙子哎，超棒的好嘛，每次看到別的女生俺都會羡慕她們。
+
+俺也有偷偷穿過俺姐的裙子，很開心又很害怕，害怕被別人發現。俺討厭自己的第二性征，為什麼俺不可以是女生……
+
+俺也討厭那些被貼在身上的標籤，俺不能接受，但性別又不是自己能決定的，俺註定改變不了什麼，在別人的印象中男生就只能是那種大大咧咧邋裡邋遢的樣子嘛。
+
+俺有一個很懂事的姐姐，做什麼事都很照顧俺，俺頂嘴被老爸打了也會第一時間來安慰俺。和她待在一起的日子裡，俺感覺很幸福，不過這份短暫的幸福只持續到了她小學畢業……
+
+也可能有點家庭原因，小時候老爸抽煙喝酒賭博全都沾，還喜歡家暴，他經常打俺。有一次打得小腿都留下了一條很粗的黑色的印子。俺老媽被家暴幾次後就去了外省打工，老爸經常賭博到淩晨都不回來，俺一個人又不敢睡，只能一直開著電視躲在靠牆那邊的床角，可能是因為這種從小缺愛的家庭環境讓俺更渴望被愛吧………
+
+俺是那種被動型人格，沒有主見，自怨自艾，總是逃避，過分在意他人的評價，渴望被認可。可就算再難過，俺面對別人的時候也會擠出一絲笑容，害怕被別人誤解。
+
+雖然只有髮小願意陪俺，但俺更渴望能和女孩子一起玩，那時候看到女同學玩花繩，跳皮筋俺都想過去跟她們一起玩，無奈沒有勇氣邁出那一步，只能遠遠觀望。俺記得非常清楚的是有一次大課間，俺一個人站在角落望著遠處的女同學玩跳皮筋，看了很久，很想過去跟她們一起玩，但又害怕被笑，就沒敢開口，到最後終於有個女孩看到俺了，邀請俺過去一起玩跳皮筋，俺剛想走過去的時候上課鈴就響了，那時候真的很傷心，這件事俺現在依舊記憶深刻……
+
+哎……這種想法一直藏在俺心底沒和任何人提起過，直到之前偶然間從網路上瞭解到了跨性別和 HRT，改變了俺刻板的想法，深入瞭解後毫不猶豫的就去找途徑買糖吃……
+
+## 訣蟄的離開
+
+> 「本來就不抱有能被接受的期望, 生來就是個不合群的怪胎……」
+
+在那天, 那位女孩躲到了人們難以發現的山上, 準備結束這一切.  
+
+她知道她的家庭經濟條件沒辦法將她挽救回來.  
+
+她總是覺得自己是個累贅...  
+
+> 「好浓，好苦，好咸……」
+>
+> 「希望来世可以当个女孩子……对不起，死了还要别人为俺担心……」
+
+向那位女孩說晚安吧, 她只是太累了, 睡著了呢……