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**A R I G A T O**
> こんなちいさな星座なのに > > I'm such a small and insignificant constellation, > > ココにいたこと 気付いてくれて > > but you noticed that I was here. > > ありがとう > > Thank you.Description
Hanasaka was a trans girl who was lively and lovely. She studied in the School of Mathematics at Liaoning Normal University.
She was proficient in mathematics and enjoyed learning computer science.
She was also a traffic enthusiast. She was interested in city buses, rail transit and national railways. Occasionally, she took flights and looked at the blue sky outside the porthole. Although these were always solo trips.
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She was good at playing rhythm game OSU, and uploaded many videos of her gameplay. She was still online even when she was in a bad mental condition.
Hanasaka also focused on several kinds of games, such as THE iDOLM@STER SHINY COLORS and Nekopara. Sadly, she gradually lost interest in games due to life pressure, and she no longer updated her activities in games afterwards.
For some reason, her mental health worsened since March 2018. Luckily, there were still people who cared about her. In early June 2018, she went to IKEA with an acquaintance, and ate tasty and affordable ice cream cones together.
Her Departure
As Hanasaka described herself on her Zhihu profile: "Just a Giftia, about to be deactivated".
A Giftia is a type of android with a humanoid body in anime PLASTIC MEMORIES. They have their own personality and emotions. But they can only "live" for a maximum of 81,920 hours, after which their programming becomes corrupted due to numerous failed attempts at overwriting old information. If a Giftia is not retrieved and deactivated before the end of their lifespan, it is very likely that they will become "Wanderers".
Hanasaka used this metaphor to describe her mental state about to collapse.
In May, she used "Mayday" to convey the signal that she was approaching her limit. Fortunately, she was out of danger later on.
Responder 7700 Mayday Mayday Mayday Mayday has been downgraded to Mayday Mayday Mayday
Expected overweight landing
Executing overweight landing checklist
// I'm probably a fallen angel.
// My unpredictable mood is just like the weather outside.
// Please rest assured, everyone who forwarded my post. It won't crash!
Although she told everyone to go out and take a look at the scenery to relax, and she also said, "Please keep alive even if you are desperate. In that case, you can make dreams come true."
But she still chose to leave this world in August.
Before that, she entrusted Mizuki, a railfan in the United States, to announce her death on her account.
Mizuki told us a short story instead of publishing a cold obituary.
Finally went to hell as a devil.
updated 18-08-09
The sentence was left by her boyfriend to her. She was seeking the end of her first love, but she couldn't receive an answer. even if the answer was "Go f*ck yourself"
Finally, she could only leave such words:
"May the world treat you well."
"At least better than me."
In fact, how could she possibly be a devil going to hell? She was a gentle person with a "helper" personality. She always thought about others without considering herself. But perhaps it's also the reason why they parted.
At last, she burned her belongings, and drowned in the river that never stopped flowing.
She had been in a world where no one would hate her, and nothing bad would happen.
Her Letter
Hanasaka left a letter for her only friend:
I am never gone,
Just changed where I live,
From ground to heaven owo
(Maybe hell xDDDD)
If you happen to see this,
You shouldn't be surprised,
Cause neko has 9 lives =w=
Remember,
I will always be with you,
No matter what you've become,
And who's by your side w
Sincerely,
Kagurazaka Hanasaka
Aug. 8th, 2018
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Now these accounts are free. May she be free too.
Time to sleep friends, and keep smiling, keep alive.