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| Yuki Akatsuki |
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Introduction
Yuki was a gentle and lovely trans woman. She had a slim figure and smooth skin.
She loved music. She liked works like Bocchi the Rock!, Chōten-chan, and メンヘラスタイル. She owns a pink guitar. She is also very skilled at music games such as maimaiDX. She expressed a disinterest in people, but many people like her nonetheless. She often said she wanted to become able to work, support herself, and be independent, so she could earn money for surgery (SRS).
Her dreams at night sometimes felt more realistic than reality, but many were nightmares or unsettlingly strange.
She didn't want to cause trouble for others, so she kept many thoughts to herself.
Life
In her childhood, she suffered domestic violence and school bullying, which laid the foundation for her depression. Early on, her parents could not understand her gender identity. They tricked her into a conversion institution, and she was confined there for half a year. During the confinement, she suffered inhumane abuse, such as being forced to drink swill, corporal punishment, and witnessing bloodshed. Those eventually led to a mental breakdown; she hammered her hand which caused a comminuted fracture of her little finger. She also developed schizophrenia, which worsened her depression and bipolar disorder. After this, her family gradually began to understand her. After she attempted suicide, her family became more accepting of her. They accepted her idea of getting the surgery. Her mother visited her in Chengdu twice and took her out for meals. However, her family still never took her bipolar disorder and schizophrenia seriously and didn't let her continue to see the doctors. Therefore, Yuki was in a state of medication withdrawal.
To make money and become self-sufficient, Yuki tried working as a game proxy player (grinding out the boring parts of games for someone else) and a food delivery worker. However, playing Genshin Impact (a popular game) as a proxy player only earned her 50 yuan despite the high workload. As for the food delivery work, since she's underage she was not directly employed by Meituan Takeout or pastry shops but by Yicheng Feike (an outsourcing delivery company employing minors). She also worked part-time for Meituan and Eleme. Yuki wanted to start working quickly to earn money, so she signed a restrictive car rental contract with a streetlight company. The contract required her to pay the rent for three months, or else she would have to pay liquidated damages.
But her wages were delayed, and the police couldn't force the companies to pay her on time. On Children's Day, Yuki's phone and keys were stolen while at work. Fearing her boyfriend might inform her family and make them worry, she did not return to her boyfriend's house that night. Spending the whole night outside, she was hungry and cold. Later, her tablet was also stolen. Once again, the police could not resolve the situation. It was devastating for her because she liked that phone and that tablet.
At this point, Yuki became extremely disappointed with the world. She had attempted suicide many times before. In the last year of her life (2024), the frequency increased to sometimes three or four times a month. Her friends often called the police and organized offline rescue operations to interrupt her suicide attempts.
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Yuki wanted to live in Chengdu. She initially came to Chengdu to meet her ex "Xixi," who often changed names and now has tens of thousands of followers. However, Xixi abandoned her. After being taken in by Zhouzhou1, she lived with her. Zhouzhou treated her as if she were her daughter. Later, Zhouzhou returned to her hometown to live with her family. Yuki's boyfriend rented the original house to live with Yuki. They had some conflicts, so Yuki went to stay with Zhenli2 to ease the awkwardness. After Zhenli went abroad, Yuki moved in with Xixi Biscuit. As a result, her boyfriend and friends could not always be by her side and rescue her in time.
In her last few days, to everyone's surprise, she didn't self-harm, and her mood seemed very stable. On June 27th, her boyfriend accompanied her. They ate delicious food and played maimaiDX. After her boyfriend saw her off at a subway station and she returned to her residence, she walked to the river alone, not bringing her phone or tablet this time only, and jumped in. Her body was discovered on July 5th.
Contributors: Zhenli, Sansan, Suona