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Yumao	alias location Yumao, Zhangqianye，Yunyu Shanghai

"It feels like that you are hiding in crystal alone, all I can see is your shattered figure. "

By Neko

Description

Yumao(Zhangqianye) is a trans girl, who is gentle, smart, tough and lovely.

She introduced herself in her profile: Perhaps Yumao doesn't like taking part in group activities. I love white and red, also that kind of rainbow in Glitch. And I have a sweet tooth, I would feel happy for a long time while holding a packet of white rabbit creamy candies. I love cats, and adopt a cat called Ayaka.

She was an admiral of Kancolle， and her first action figure was Destroyor Akizuki im kancolle.

She loved time with silent and ease. For example, she put on the headphones and drank hot coffee in café, she watched out of the window and observed people came and left. This would make her relaxed. Sometimes, she had some special thoughts. She wished to shooting stars at times, she said: "It's not because I believe that, but in that it's free. And there's no evidence shows it doesn't work."

Yumao liked to watch stars when she didn't sleep yet at night. After she returned to China, due to bad weather and few time, she couldn't watch stars as previous time. So she made a special trip to Dishui Lake once and watched stars.

She saved many thoughts in her private blog, and these blog posts included many areas: computer science, military and politics. She was also a girl who loved literature, and she wrote down much beautiful prose and poetry. Of course, she record daily life in her blog, and we can still see her story, her experience, and her train of thoughts.

经历

羽毛曾经有一段在美国留学生活的经历，然后回到了上海求学。

而后，在 2017 年的时候，她在推特上认识了 Neko，觉得她是很厉害的人，并逐渐与 Neko 成为了重要的伙伴。

在这段时光之中，羽毛和得到了很多的精神上的支持。羽毛自己这样形容：「即便是那些曾经被埋没的，黑暗的，痛苦的，你也悄悄观测到了，感受到了，可能比我自己还要了解得多一些吧，好厉害。那个已经碎碎的自己，也被你看到了呢，甚至被抱了出来，第一次被别人碰到呢。」

然而，她们在 2018 年 3 月中旬被迫分开，随后，Neko 被家人带回云南，送入了矫正中心。此后不久，Neko 传出了轻生后抢救无效的消息，并得到了新京报的报道。知道这个消息的羽毛极度悲伤和难过，她在她们的 Telegram 频道之中发送了许多许多想念 Neko 的消息。她引用了《仙后座 (カシオペヤ) 》一曲来表达自己的悲伤，这是她们曾经一起听过的歌曲。

尽管她也通过一些渠道发现，Neko的「自杀」似乎仍有些扑朔迷离，但 Neko 确实也一直杳无音讯。她在内心一直期望着 Neko 还在。

「因为你而存在……因为你而不在，要在啊……」

在博客之中，羽毛也一直在思念着 Neko，追忆往昔的事情，并时常写下一些关心的话语，比如是否认真打理头发，又或者是否及时增添衣服。

在这段时间里，羽毛一直在尝试回忆以前的事情，那些感动、开心而幸福的事情。但她的内心被悲伤所占据，记忆能力在逐渐消退，逐渐淡忘了很多。

原本她还规划着想要在年内手术，但由于精神状态急转直下等原因，因此也未能实现。

在 7 月 30 日，万念俱灰的她尝试轻生，并在次日带着遗憾离开了这个世界，永远地留在了她的 17 岁。

希望下辈子，可以做漂亮的，善良的女孩子，可以和絢香还有琉璃成为姐妹吧。

在 3 月的博客《分别与重逢》之中，她给她的朋友们留下了许多的话语，也一直感谢大家的陪伴。

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身后

但实际上，Neko 并没有离世。在 3 月 19 日的邮件之中，她依然和羽毛相互鼓励「一定要活着」。

社群也曾对此事进行了一定的调查，发现 Neko 是被家人「宣告死亡」的背后事实。

背后的事情

Neko 和羽毛被迫在上海分开之后，被父母带回了云南昆明，而后在心理卫生中心住院治疗。

在这段时间里，Neko 一直想着要去寻找羽毛，于是在院外与家人吃饭的间隙尝试和羽毛联系，并说服了当值医生给自己开具出院证明。此举激怒了其家人。此后，家人索性假借送她去机场之名，将其开车送至昆明安宁市好孩子学校（以下简称「好孩子」）此后，Neko 被关入了 308 房间，也可以理解成小黑屋一样的存在。

在从308房间出来之后数日，由于 Neko 掌握着不错的计算机技术，加上此时宣传部门较为信任她，于是他们找到了 Neko，要求其帮助他们修理网络系统。Neko 在修复网络系统后迅速给羽毛发送了邮件。

随后，外界开始了对Neko父母的言论轰炸，新京报的记者也找到了好孩子，询问Neko的下落。

但是，Neko 的父母随后作出了惊人的决定，和其他人说已经把 Neko 从机构中带出，随后将 Neko 的户籍注销，并用哭腔在《新京报》的采访中对外界宣称 Neko 已于 3 月 24 日凌晨自杀。

To commenmorate all the difficulties I suffered in the past two years

From 2018-03-16 22:31

To 2020-03-16 22:31

Thanks to all your efforts in that period

This is also, to remember all the things you experienced after we separted

Also, for you in 2018-07-31

Thank you everyone.

Neko, at Telegram

After survived the ordeal, Neko tried to get out of the shadow, and she gradually moved toward to the right road of life.

"Cat will stay alive, to remember that girl I used to loved." This is what Neko always uses to encourage herself.

In Zhihu questionWhat are your thoughts about ZhiHu user @yu-zhang-31-35 ?, many friends wrote their memories of yumao, and expressed their sandness and regret of the death of her.

Good night, yumao, wish you can be a girl and live happily.

Contributors for this entry: One-Among-Us, Ayaka Neko