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name: Huacha
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info:
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alias: Huacha, Futa Juhuacha
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location: Chongqing, China
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---
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## Description
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Huacha means flower-scented tea.
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Huacha was a lovely and determined trans girl who loved this world.
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She was an OIer and once participated in the National Olympiad in Informatics(NOI).
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She adored long hair, so she opted for hair extensions.
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She loved writing and reading, and she often delved into the works of Lu Xun.
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She showcased her fluency in poetry and her ability to critique the world by writing essays in a style reminiscent of Lu Xun.
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Realizing her true gender identity at an early age,
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she struggled with severe anxiety,
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which she endured silently for a long time.
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She always felt that she was trapped in a nightmare of not being recognized as a girl,
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and she hoped to wake up from it every day.
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Later, she chose the path of self-discovery and embraced her identity as a girl.
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Huacha was a gentle girl, akin to her friend [Xuewulihuameng](https://one-among.us/profile/xuewulihuameng).
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She offered helpful advice in Zhihu Question [How can I help my MtF friend?](https://www.zhihu.com/question/274131925/answer/372594163).
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After giving some suggestions, she wrote at last:
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> “If you don’t understand how to give advice when she experiences an emotional breakdown, you can simply accompany her at her side silently (you can even hug her because when I was in an emotional breakdown, I hoped someone would hug me)...spend more time with her...”
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## The Blood Mary Observer
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*The Blood Mary Observer* was a series of articles on Zhihu authored by Hucha.
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Tragically, Huacha took her life shortly after she penned these articles.
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So, there were only three articles in *The Blood Mary Observer*.
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But the profound content was still worth reading.
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The first article was *[In Memory of Ms.MtF (Mr.Ftm)](https://zhuanlan.zhihu.com/p/38000835)*[^1].
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She wrote the article around May to June 2018.
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At that time, Zhihu, which was a platform initially claimed to be LGBT friendly, started to conduct strict censorship on transgender-related topics.
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Zhihu blocked many transgender users
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and deleted many records about the transgender community at that time.
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Huacha wrote down the article to accuse Zhihu and express her indignation towards the persecution of Transgender community.
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She appealed to people that everyone should respect the right of transgender individuals to express their inner thoughts - whether they were MTF FTM or individuals of any other gender.
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The article was concise and straightforward, and its words didn’t pull any punches.
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Just as the comment said:
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> “This article is quite in the style of Lu Xun. #LOL#"
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The third article was *[Yazyuu Senpai Zhihu Setu](https://zhuanlan.zhihu.com/p/38419017)*. Its original point was the same as the first article.
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The article humorously expressed her dissatisfaction with the strict censorship of transgender-related topics by Zhihu, which initially claimed to be LGBT-friendly.
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The second article was *[Invisible Poison](https://zhuanlan.zhihu.com/p/38173742)*.
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The article mainly focused on the persecution experienced by transgender individuals at the hands of their original families.
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She pointed out that some parents were essentially murderers,
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and the so-called “love” ultimately became the “poison” that killed children.
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> Many transgender individuals have been exposed to an invisible poison called “love” and left the world at last.
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> The parents deprived their fundamental rights as human beings in the name of “love”.
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>
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> Legally, due to parents having the special status of “guardian”,
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> the difficulty for transgender individuals to obtain assistance has greatly increased.
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>
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> Excerpted from *Invisible Poison*
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Today, many transgender individuals choose to leave this world due to this kind of “Invisible Poison”.
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This article still has its profound practical significance.
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Before the article was published, one of her transgender friends (probably Xueli) took her life due to domestic pressure and violence.
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Another reason for writing this article was to mourn her, as well as countless transgender friends who passed away owing to the invisible poison.
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## Her Departure
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On April 2nd, 2018, Xueli passed away by suicide.
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From the first “seven days” to the seventh “seven days” [^2] of Xueli’s death,
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she always missed Xueli, the lovely, gentle girl who quietly left alone.
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> May the world treat you gently.
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>
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> It’s suddenly raining heavily in Chongqing...
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>
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> Is this your way of calling me...?
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During the “seven days”, Huacha’s mental health became worse and worse.
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She said that she was not sure about whether she could live to the end of the seventh “seven days” of Xueli’s death.
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On the last day of the fourth “seven days”,
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she almost couldn’t control the thought of suicide on the Huanghuayuan Jialingjiang Bridge,
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which was a land of fate —— the place of death of Xueli and several other MtFs in Chongqing.
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At the end of June, she attempted to take her own life again and was admitted to ICU.
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After her physical condition improved, she wrote down this little poem:
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]} />
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In fact, she still hoped to live.
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Until days before she departed, she was still finding the hope to live,
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and she asked Siri about methods to prevent suicide.
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But the unfortunate thing still happened at last.
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On the evening of July 10th, she walked up to the Huanghuayuan Jialingjiang Bridge again.
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The dreamlike lighting seemed to immerse her in a dream...
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In the same place, on a similar night, she took her own life as Xueli did.
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The rescue in the late night failed to save her life.
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In the early morning of the next day, the girl chasing the Milky Way finally left the world.
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> Farewell, Huacha. I hope you and Xueli can be together well in heaven.
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> The only thing we can do is live with hope...
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>
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> NekoyaFam, 2018-07-11, on Zhihu
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Contributors for this entry: One-Among-Us, [Kristall Wang](https://github.com/KristallWang)
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[^1]: The title format imitates *In Memory of Ms.Liu Hezhen*, which was a famous work of Lu Xun, published on April 12th, 1926.
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[^2]: Funeral customs in East Asia. In tradition, the memorial ceremony is held every seven days after a person’s death, with one session lasting seven days and a maximum of seven sessions. It will take 49 days to complete.
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